Trenchcoat Whores

Hey so not much is going on. Last night I cleaned my room, thats exciting I guess. Um, tonight theres a big supper at my great aunts.... I think its crazy why my family thinks its great if we go at like 330 then sit around for three hours, then eat, then sit around for another like 2. I guess whatever floats their boat though. I heard battle of the Bands was last night and wanted to go, but oh well theres always the next one. Work is goin good... but kids can get on your nerves hardcore and i dont really enjoy singing dumb songs to myself while they inspect fuzzies they think are bugs on the floor. So i got another dumb fucking speeding ticket, stupid stupid bad timing. Thats the first time Ive sped like that since I hadda work at 830 instead of 845, and then I saw the stupid copp and slowed down, but i didnt outsmart him. He clocked me at 114 in an 80, but he put it down to a 109 so i wouldnt get a 115 dollar ticket. Ssssssssssssssssoooo I just got one point back from last year now I lose two. God Im good. So i just kept crying at work and i dont know why its not that big of a deal, who wants to drive 80 on a straight road for half an hour? Its the effin country god. I got my law textbook for my correspondance, and it looks long and boring, and now i have to buy my workbook to go with it, its a very long process. But its good because once these two courses are done, I can take a course I want at upei. But im scared, because i still dont know what i want to be. I have no idea actually, and theres all these people already on their way to having their dream job. I dont want to be stuck at a daycare forever, at like maximum 10 dollars an hour. But even if i wanted to be say, a nurse, they make a lot of money but its 4 years of upei very expensive, and then id have to take two more correspondance courses of science and math. And even then they have to clean up old peoples poop says mom. SO this upsets me, and then i was thinking maybe I would like the travel and tourism course....but no dad has to tell me that ill be making 8 dollars an hour for the rest of my life there. Great. I can make that where i am now. Or theres a pharmacist, they take about 4-5 years at dal. Too expensive, everything theres either no room for or takes wayyy too much money to get into and too many years to afford going away and living somewhers else or it will put you in huge debt with loans. I hate how all those people know exactly what they wanna be and they're going to get it in a couple years and wil already be settled in and I still wont even be started. Im not making sense its early so yeah.